For One Who is Lost

"Deliverance"
I hid my face that no
light would shine upon it
to expose my shame.
I shut my hands
that I would not have to
look upon them and
behold their stains
of years of self-deception.
I lay in bed and swept
my thoughts away
to numb the pain
of what I was,
the nothing of what
I had been, but
it crawled mockingly in
bed beside me
to remind me.

So when He called
I didn't answer, I
didn't lift my head.
I dare not believe
that such a Being was
beckoning me,
bidding me to find Him.
But in my depths, in my
desperate inner pleadings,
mercy shone its rays
upon me and bid me
to rise and show my face
because I had found
Him whose love
defied my bitter shame -
my deliverance,
my way up and
my way out.